What is wrong with me? I mean I wake up every day with the best intentions in my heart, I want to be a good person, I want to be sweet and patient. I want to follow God’s ways, God’s truth. Somehow though I end up doing just the opposite.
It seems to me like I live my life between two selves. The one that wants to do the will of God and the other that still believes I can do it on my own.
”O Lord, I give my life to you.
Show me the right path, O Lord; point out the road for me to follow. Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. All day long I put my hope in you.”
Psalms 25:1, 4-5 NLT
David is saying to us here that our lives as believes can be lived either ”all in” with God or ’all-out’. There seems to be no middle way in the kingdom.
David leads the ‘all way in” pattern here which is a rhythm that sounds more like surrender, submission, wait, then go with the tone of joy constantly playing on.
It’s this idea of ’hope all day long’ on God, not only when we feel it or when we have some desperate needs, but all the time. Its the life of faith and freedom.
Faith and Control don’t cohabit together
David speaks of a life which is in constant connection with God and that relentlessly gives back to him what we like to control and keep.
Everything we hold dear, everyone we hold close is safer with God as we follow him in all our relationships and walk step by step as he guides.
It’s risky and can certainly be out of our control, but is the path to abundance and real life.